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philippos42) wrote2014-01-27 05:42 pm
philippos42) wrote2014-01-27 05:42 pm
Fandom, obsessive behavior, and me
I lately went through a big binge of Narnia fic. A few days ago I got interested in a new board game. I've had months of my life disappear to online flash games.
I have this thing where I discover something new, or start something new--could be a band, a writer, a game--or a job, going to school, whatever--and go in way too hard very fast. I will obsess on something to a striking degree. And then, often, I will get over it.
Maybe I totally burn out and get sick of it, and never want to see it again. I have seen its flaws, I have lost weeks of my life, and I don't want to spend any more time on it.
Sometimes it's something I'll feel attached to for a long time thereafter, just a part of my regular bag of affiliations and affections.
And in some of those cases, I may (as with Harlan Ellison) eventually hit a point where, with distance of time, I decide that it really wasn't that good, or not something I personally like after all.
I'm not sure where I'm going on this fanfic binge. Will I still be reading Heliopause's fics in four years? Will I just walk away for a while? Will I leave it and come back?
I don't know.
This stinking board game, though, I'm gonna burn out pretty hard and fast, I think. Familiar pattern.
Moderation is hard.
I have this thing where I discover something new, or start something new--could be a band, a writer, a game--or a job, going to school, whatever--and go in way too hard very fast. I will obsess on something to a striking degree. And then, often, I will get over it.
Maybe I totally burn out and get sick of it, and never want to see it again. I have seen its flaws, I have lost weeks of my life, and I don't want to spend any more time on it.
Sometimes it's something I'll feel attached to for a long time thereafter, just a part of my regular bag of affiliations and affections.
And in some of those cases, I may (as with Harlan Ellison) eventually hit a point where, with distance of time, I decide that it really wasn't that good, or not something I personally like after all.
I'm not sure where I'm going on this fanfic binge. Will I still be reading Heliopause's fics in four years? Will I just walk away for a while? Will I leave it and come back?
I don't know.
This stinking board game, though, I'm gonna burn out pretty hard and fast, I think. Familiar pattern.
Moderation is hard.
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-J
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