philippos42 | Embarrassment

I forgot my writing meme yesterday. To "make up" for it, I thought of posting a bonus embarrassing story today, but it could embarrass someone else more, and it's just possible that people would work out who it was, so I won't.

So, let's talk a little about embarrassment. I generally have a really hard time watching embarrassment-based comedy. It can be enough for me to change a channel or walk out of a room. In real life, I seem to manage to embarrass myself pretty badly sometimes, which is part of why I'm such an antisocial case in real life. And my antisocial tendencies may make it easier for me to do things that I later realize are embarrassing, and....

I have at various points tried to be someone who just lets things slide off my back. Maybe dangerously. Maybe I am not ashamed of things a typical person would be, because I feel like I can't afford the stress of fixing them? And maybe I am still too ashamed of other things?

I don't know.

Last night on Saturday Night Live there was a sketch where a guy (played by Jonah Hill, this week's host) would excuse himself from a dinner party to go into the bathroom every time he said something that made him feel foolish. Then he would loudly scold himself--and everyone could hear. At some point someone admitted to him that everyone could hear him--and he went into the bathroom to loudly scold himself for that.

I laughed at that one. I think I've more or less done that in real life. Not the whole sequence, not the screaming at myself in the same way, but sort of.

Yep, I'm nuts.