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philippos42 ([personal profile] philippos42) wrote2014-01-27 05:42 pm

Fandom, obsessive behavior, and me

I lately went through a big binge of Narnia fic. A few days ago I got interested in a new board game. I've had months of my life disappear to online flash games.

I have this thing where I discover something new, or start something new--could be a band, a writer, a game--or a job, going to school, whatever--and go in way too hard very fast. I will obsess on something to a striking degree. And then, often, I will get over it.

Maybe I totally burn out and get sick of it, and never want to see it again. I have seen its flaws, I have lost weeks of my life, and I don't want to spend any more time on it.

Sometimes it's something I'll feel attached to for a long time thereafter, just a part of my regular bag of affiliations and affections.

And in some of those cases, I may (as with Harlan Ellison) eventually hit a point where, with distance of time, I decide that it really wasn't that good, or not something I personally like after all.

I'm not sure where I'm going on this fanfic binge. Will I still be reading Heliopause's fics in four years? Will I just walk away for a while? Will I leave it and come back?

I don't know.

This stinking board game, though, I'm gonna burn out pretty hard and fast, I think. Familiar pattern.

Moderation is hard.
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[personal profile] jae 2014-01-28 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
I have the same obsession gene, but when it hits super-hard, I don't get over it. I'm in it for the long haul, pretty much no matter what.

-J
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[personal profile] heliopausa 2014-02-02 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
:) Well, I'm happy you're reading them now! And I really, really hope that I'll have a new chapter of 'Ivory' up by the end of the week - two scenes are proving very sticky.